In an utterly stupid and vain attempt to become heartless after losing everything to the point where death doesn't even scare me, I ended up waking feeling like I've done something wrong more than not caring at all. I wanted to e-mail so many people, but I know that's impossible. Their e-mail has changed to the point where the addresses I have won't work. It would just be a waste of my time! Still, I know I've done something wrong, something very wrong. The part that's killing me the most is that I don't know how to fix it. On top of that, I don't think I can fix it.

I can't win! It's just hopeless...