You know, there are some things that just puzzle me. They mostly involve myself.

For instance, what is the drive behind me always wanting to try to please everyone with how I preform and what I do? Why do I not really care about my own happiness? Why are other's happiness more important than my own?

Another example is why I get all dark and ranty when I feel I failed. I mean, why do I act that way? What makes me feel as if the whole world is about to come crashing down? Is it my sensativity? Is it that weird drive to please everyone? Is it cause I don't want to lose whomever I've pissed off?

Well, in any case, I need to kill that side of me... the dark and moody side that is. I'm starting to hate it.