I'm starting to feel like a dork right now. I mean, really, what am I trying to do here with Paul?! My e-mail, the asking about him. I know I don't stand a chance. Never did! So why am I so fluttered by the meantioning of his name or even just looking at his picture? What is the big deal??

What is wrong with me? Don't tell me I'm starting up again. Please don't tell me that this stupid lust for him is being revived from the dead. Please, please tell me that isn't what is happening.

I really need to met someone new.