I apologized to my sister and took my first step in doing something I should have done a long time ago.

I admited to her that I have a lot of complicated problems of both the mind and of the heart. That's all I told her.

She offered to help, but I don't think she could. My problems are just too much for her. She is a strong, beautiful, free-spirited woman. As understanding as she is, I don't think she would know what it would feel like to be me.

I hope things change when I go to college. I really really hope so.