I woke up feeling strange again today.

I think the whole "I've had too many disappointments in my life to where I go into everything with the mind-set that I'm going to lose so that it doesn't really bother me" thing is making itself known again. It's as if I knew I was going to screw this up eventually.

I don't know. I'm the worst person to even think about things like this.

Today seems like a good day for a walk.