The List (Part 1)

On Friday, Jason wrote:

Reading your last blog entry, I don't know if my comment is encouraging or not. This phrase stood out to me also, and I have a special request:

I don't know where my interests are anymore.
I don't know what drives me to create things.
I don't know why I wanted to be an artist in the first place.

The last of these phrases is irrelevent - it's too late because you're already an artist whether you want to be or not.

The first two sentences are important though, and require your IMMEDIATE attention.

Please do me a favor. In your next blog entry write only a list. A list of all of your interests. One word interests. And at the end of this blog-entry that consists ONLY of a list, answer two questions: "Which of these things makes the top of your list?" and "Why?" The thing that you love the most, sex, cooking, drawing, telling your parents to go fuck themselves (I doubt you actually do that) telling me that you don't give a fuck about driving... whatever - what is the thing that you'd choose for the rest of your life, the thing you can see yourself doing as you take your last breath. And then explain to yourself, and me, and everyone else that read your blog (but have stopped leaving comments) why this is your thing.

I'm really curious to read this list. It can be as long as you want. It can't be short, though.

The List

• games
• cartoons
• art
• rides
• creativity
• twinks
• wrestling
• technology
• food
• music
• sleep
• toys
• pornography

What tops the list and Why
If work can be play and play can be work, then what tops the list should be fun. This immediately cancels out sleep (though the research of sleep could be fun, but not to me).

Games are fun.
Cartoons are fun to watch.
Rides are fun to experience.
Art and the creative process are fun.
Wrestling can be fun to both watch and mutually participate in.
Twinks and pornography can be fun.
Music is always fun.
Technology is fun, for better or worse.
Toys are fun.
Food can be fun to make, display, and even eat.

One cannot seem to out-weigh the other, so another process of elimination is needed. So not only does the top of this list need to be fun, it has to be something I regularly participate in. This eliminates twinks and wrestling from the list due to a lack of interaction in both. Rides is also knocked out mostly because it's an annoying vague one-word consolidation of what that really means but also because the type of rides that are fun to experience are the kind that I only experience once every so-many years via trips to theme parks. Art also takes a drop off the list because the participation and interaction with it is only when someone shows me something I may be interested in. In other words, I don't go looking for art, and recent developments clearly indicate that I certainly cannot create art.

I eat food everyday.
I play music to lighten the mood.
I own toys that I play with, if only once every month or two.
I'm using technology right now.
I play games to kill time
I watch cartoons nightly.
I use creativity and imagination in some of my personal projects.
I view pornography of a regular basis.

Round three of elimination! This time things done out of necessity needs to leave the list. Food, technology, toys, porn, and, surprisingly, music and games are now out of the running. This leaves cartoons and creativity as the finalists on the list. Having gone three rounds of elimination processes, which one of these two will come out on top? Who will achieve total victory and who will go home the loser?

Find out next time!