Starting to Think Practically

Over the weekend, I've been trying to get Jason out of my head knowing well enough that it wouldn't work out no matter how much I wanted it to. Yes, I know. I'm more than likely being too hard on myself. Given my situation, Jason could be the best thing to happen to me since David cancelled what I hoped would be my ultimate summer.

But you have to remember something. Jason is just way out of my league.

I have a tendency to not think things in a practical sense. If my last project in sculpture tells me anything, I'm overly ambitious when put in a situation without limits. Yes, in my eye I can produce some amazing results aimed at a small and select few.

But I need to know my limits.

With that project, my limits were time and money. Later, gravity was another factor. With Jason, my limitations are pretty much the same as when I fancied Andrew and James. He is just too damn good for me. His paintings make me wish I could do better (and we all know where that leads, don't we?). The way he carries himself when I've seen him is so strong and proud.

Given how I am, it would never work.