Easter Oddities

Several subjects pertaining to this holiday season are on my mind right now.

First one that I shall address is what I gave up for Lent. For those of you that haven't been keeping track, I gave up pornographic material viewing with the intent of pleasure. In other words, seeking out and getting off to porn. Accidental exposure to such material was the exception, as I was not seeking out whatever I accidentally viewed.

Well, as far as that went, I'm surprised that I was able to complete this sacrifice. Yes, there were times when the vice took over, but I made it. I even thought I failed at one point, but after talking to several people on Gaia, it turned out most people consider pictures pornographic if they actually have nudity in it. Thankfully, the pictures I viewed were clothed.

However, looking back on it and where I am now, I don't think this helped me out any. I still remember several links to several preview sites. They may not be exactly the same URL as I remembered 40 days ago, but that's nothing a few minutes on Google can't fix. On top of that, I still have a want to view porn. From what I'm told, that kind of thing wouldn't happen after the whole 40 days of no vice. Then again, I bet there's someone out there scarfing down chocolate Easter bunnies right now after giving up sweets for Lent.

Oh well, I'm a porn addict.

Second on the list are several things I noticed when I went to Mass today. Now, even though I don't really like the church and where they stand on my kind of lifestyle and the fact that I like guys more than girls, I still make it a point to go to Easter and Christmas mass out of respect if nothing else. I also make it a point to wear the nicest things I can possibly have on me at the time, which is starting to grow small on me. I need a new set of formal wear anyway. I've been wearing the same brown set for the last three or four years now. (Incidentally, the shade of brown on my sport jacket matches my skin tone.)

The thing is, I could have gotten away with just wearing a T-shirt and jeans! I was very surprised how many people came to church wearing just that! Granted they were in Easter colors, but still. While the majority came in their suits and ties, several people came dressed looking like they were going to the beach right after church! I was still the only male in the room with a ponytail, however.

Lastly, I noticed several odd things about the people in front of me. Two rows in front were a pair of boys. They were either brothers or really close friends or some kind of relation. I can't tell any more, as I'm convinced the gene pool of facial feature is starting to get shallow on the Caucasian end, much like how it kind of is on the Asian end. The only sure thing I can tell you is that they were really playful with each other. I don't know why, but I kept wondering if they were gay and together. The shorter of the two boys at one point put his arm across the back rest of the other. A few moments later, the other boy jokingly leaned over towards him. They both smiled at each other, and the shorter boy then withdrew his arm back into his lap. At the point in the mass when we are to hold hands to say the "Our Father" prayer, I noticed that, again, the shorter of the two boys adjusted his hand so that he held the other one's hand like a couple would. I saw a smile between the two of them, and their hands stayed that way for the whole prayer.

It made me curious as to who those two boys are and what the deal with them is. I would like to say that it gave me hope, but it really didn't. Compared to them, I'm not all that hot. Hell, even the alter boy that was helping today's service, whom I know is also Filipino, looked hotter than I ever will or ever have!

Sitting a row in front of them was another young man in his Sunday Easter best. Nothing was really all that striking to me, until I saw his ring. He was wearing a ring on his pinky that had the biggest precious rock I have ever seen in my life! It was bigger than his finger! I was convinced that the weight of the ring would cause it to slip off his pinky! It made me feel even more poor than I already am.

One last odd thing I just realized as a way to close this entry. Don't you find it odd that it can take you forever and a day to get ready for a formal event but only two seconds to get out whatever it was you were in for that event?