Thesis Reboot

My morning routine has been interrupted. It normally goes like this:

Walk the dog
Check e-mail
Check message boards
Gaia
Neopets


I've done the first to, but as I was going to check the message boards I stopped myself.

Yesterday, Brady was trolling the studios and exchanged his usual polite hello. He more than anyone last semester expressed a genuine interest in my artistic potential and tried to be as supportive as possible, often leaving me little articles in my space he would come across. I pretty much told him briefly that I feel like I've just started over, even though I know I haven't. It's starting to affect my outlook on the class and my thesis.

I didn't know how right I was.

I also talked to Kristi. It was mostly because I got her e-mail and was confused by the words she used to express how she felt about my initial proposal. I got the impression that she thought my thesis wasn't ambitious enough, that it wasn't big enough. What she really meant was that there wasn't enough meat in the proposal for her to understand what it was that I am doing, both in project content and in subject matter that I'll be exploring. From there, we (more or less) went over what may or may not have been a contributing factor to my failure to graduate last semester. It was pretty much nailed into me that I, like so many other artists, get locked into a specific style because that's all I surround myself with. It was advised that I stop looking at those things and start looking at other artists and influences. Let my guard down.

I think that's why I stopped myself from checking my message board subscriptions. To me, it's just checking another form of e-mail. But I have to deal with an interface that is over saturated with Disney characters, anime role-playing game adverts, and the occasional independent artist who was able to break out of the comic genre with a graphic style unique to themselves.

Today is also research day... if I can bring myself to actually doing it given how awkward I feel right now about having to very literally start over. At least production wise.