I didn't want to wake up today. I really didn't. I was hoping that God would strike me down or I'd die peacefully in my sleep. I guess when I saw the light, the morning light, I knew that I had to face another day.

Why bother blogging? The question still bothers me. This blog in a way to get into my head. I'm more open here than a $2 slut on Printer's Ally! I guess I should start posting porn so people could read this.

So what's on my mind right now? Nothing. I'm blogging out of depression over what happened last night. Once again, I've lost everything that's so important to me. More important than my own life. How did I lose it? My own stupidity. Sometimes I wonder if all I'm good for is screwing up.

I really should be dead right now. No one this stupid like me should be alive. That's just a waste of human life.