"I'm such an asshole. I'm such a stain. I just keept fucking up again and again."

I hear that. Hell, I live it!

I know you did it.

I know what you did, and I really wish you did it in person.

You know I'm lonely. You know that I have a hard time sleeping at night. You know how I wish I could cuddle up next to someone during a thunder storm like the one last night. So why did you do it again?

For the second time, you left me with my jeans unbutton, boxers still on, laying on my back wondering what the hell happened. Only this time I knew as soon as I realized my pants where undone.

Why did you do this? You are already taken! You should be happy living your life with him! You told me yourself that you don't think you can do any better than him! So why do me like that again while you are with him? Am I some toy to you? A wishful fantasy place you can use and an escape? Do you not realize that I am human just like you?

Oh wait, I forgot. You've transcended. You're not really human. Only your actions are.

If this is what I am to you, then next time you feel like doing this to me, do me a favor and don't leave me there alone with my jeans undone and my boxers still on.

New Short Story @ The Purple Pen

I just finished typing up The Silver-Winged Fairy.

Feel free to read it, and leave your comments on that blog please. I kind of want to keep them all together.

This picture made me laugh.

"The Silver-Winged Fairy" Drawing

It took me about four days total, a week or more if you include those long breaks I took, but I finished it. I hate how my scanner didn't pick up the drawing's special feature. Oh well, I'm holding onto the original because I spent too much time on it.

Critiques are more than welcomed.

Also, I am throwing around in my head a story I may write about this little sprite for The Purple Pen. Nothing really has been finalized, but if something does solidify, expect to see a third short story on my second blog soon.

Lord of the Rings: Return of the Art Hacker

I decided, mostly because I was bored, to watch the last installment of the Lord of the Rings movie. In the process, I found myself taking screen captures of the movie, mainly whenever Orlando Bloom or Elijah Wood got a "hero shot." Go figure. After all, I do have a think for cute blonds as well as cute actors.

After sitting through that three hour movie, I found myself going back into the Kodak Picture CD-ROM program that was put in here. I began messing around with several of the pictures I took of the movie.

I haven't done anything like this in over three years. Back then, I called what I did with all the filters just now "Art Hacking." I wasn't actually hacking art in the literal sense of the word, whichever definition of the word "hacking" it is you wish you use. In all honesty, all I did, for the most part, was run the pictures through several filters and the like. I rare, if ever, actually had a hand in manipulating the picture. This was all back in the day when I had PhotoShop.

Anyway, here are some of my Art Hacks for your critique. Feel free to be brutal.














(He's so adorable in this one, it's just frightening)


(I like the contour lines in this one, personally.)



By the way, these will only be up for a little while. If my bandwidth goes over for the month, they will be replaced with an image saying that my bandwidth is over the limit. I may also delete them off the server to make room for more pictures, whatever those may be. Either way, you won't be able to see the pictures for forever. I suggest that if you like any of them to save them now. They will be gone one way or another.

"A picture is worth a thousand words."

Don't bother counting words in this one. I probably didn't break 900.

My aunt got her pictures back from my sister's graduation. There's one of me in there, and since I don't have a recent photo, I opted to use it. Lucky me, my aunt got a Kodak Photo CD-ROM.

This is what was developed.



I hate it. I look fat, and I look like I am enjoying myself way too much. The reality of it was that I am wanting more than ever to go eat somewhere. It was late, and I didn't have lunch that day. Why I look fat, I don't know.

As part of Kodak's Photo CD-ROM, a new program was installed in which we can manipulate our pictures any way we feel like. Remove red eye, crop, you get the idea. As you can see, I used the cartoon filter. It is suppose to make the picture look like a comic book, but I don't think it worked that great.



In any event, it's more stylized, and I like the way it looks. It fits my personality as far as what I think art is. That's why this picture is going to be my Blogger profile picture. Well, until the next one comes along.

Word Count: 226

Told you I would not break 900.

Now I really can't see a straight line!

I got my new Emo-style glasses today. While they were getting adjusted to fit my head, I couldn't help but notice that the ceiling looked as if there was a slight arch to it. This only happened while I had my glasses on. I kept seeing this even on the horizon line when we passed the airport runways.

Great, so not only can I not think straight or act straight sexually, but I can't see a straight line anymore! This should make drawing interesting.

Which do you support?

I found these two picture flashing all over the place on Gaia, and I thought I'd share them with you readers.


Pro-Gay Marriage


Anti-Gay Marriage

So, which do you support? Frankly, the second one angers me because of it's attacking tone of voice, but that's just me.

Boredom and Lack of Interest - Never Good

While bumping a friend's quest on Gaia, I talked to an old friend who lives about 12 time zones away in the Asian Island. We talked about Neopets and eventually got on the subject of RuneScape. Apparently, they changed their interface the graphics, so I decided to check it out.

I felt so lost, it was as if I was a new player again. I was somewhat familiar with the old version of the online game, but this new version threw me for a loop and a half. My friend brought me back up to speed as to what is going on, and I found a new reason why I should not ever play the game again. I think it had to do with the fact that ten players can gang up on one target.

Quite honestly, my attention span and interests in things are starting to lack. I find myself easily bored now instead of easily entertained. I guess it comes with the other. A Ying to a Yang.

Looking back at it, however, I can't help but question as to why this is the case. I want to think that it is because I am now unable to keep up with the gaming world as well as the technology that is being produced. It's bad enough that I'm still playing Pokemon, albeit off and on. Gaia's social interactions are the only thing that keep my gaming interest going.

Maybe this is a sign that I'm growing up and that I need to become an adult. You know, actually do something with my life instead of play games and chat on message boards. Or maybe the consumer world out there really does suck thanks in part to the economy. Or maybe I'm just simply evolving like a good creature of this world should. Who knows? I sure don't.