Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Restored Past

A long time ago, my dad told me about a guy that could get the data I had on the old computer out for me. The catch was I would never see the machine again, as it was going to be donated to a church mission trip. Having no use for a machine that I accidentally fried from the power source inward, I pretty much went for it.

Today, I got three CDs back with what data was on the computer. Turns out that most of the data on the old hard drive was corrupt to the point where I lost several files. I thought I had more than 3 Gigs worth of MP3s on there, but apparently my memory must have gone foggy. Still, I was surprised to see what was restored and burned on to a CD for me.

Something else surprised me too.

Among the random collection of files and MP3s that I found, I stumbled upon four images. Two were of James, and the other two were of a younger and more bad ass Bill. The pictures took me by surprise. I know the pictures are old, because they definitely do not look that way. Looking at them made me remember some good times I had talking with them, as well as all the bad times we went through.

I was even reminded looking at their pictures that these are the people that don't want to meet me anymore because I am obviously an idiot.

I then did a quick study of the pictures and found that I could use them for other reasons. I've been collecting random pictures of various models, both professional and pornographic, to practice drawing off of over the summer. I may call my model back eventually, but I don't want this to become a weekly thing.

In any event, there was a picture of James that had an interesting pose that I am thinking about drawing after my current project (which will be posted on this site because two people wanted to see the picture I drew recently with the model I had). The only one of Bill's that was interesting was one that could be considered child pornography if it wasn't a personal candid shot of Bill being Bill. I may copy that as best as I can and submit that to Gaia. After all, my fellow members of the gay community love looking at skinny and lean little anime boys.

I miss them, though. I'm like a beaten puppy that doesn't know when to run away. They probably don't give a damn about me these days. Oh well.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

You should post some of these drawings you're doing! These entries are very interesting and insightful into the psychological state of mind of an art student. But it's all writing and what I love is seeing pictures of the art you do, in your classes and outside of school. Come on baby, show us the good stuff! LOL And I'm sorry you sound like you got your heart broken by those guys. That's so sad. You know what they say, time heals all wounds! Is this where art comes from?

Anonymous said...

Aren't you concerned maybe a little, that some of these pictures and restored files might be somewhat incriminating about your sexuality? Do you think your family would be surprised if they went through the information on those CDs and found suspiciously sexual pictures of guys? Did the guy who restored these files to CD have anything to say about it? It has been my personal experience that you never restore old computers without finding slews of pornography - even files that people thought were deleted. The easiest way to determine what a person is into (sexually and non-sexually) is to have five minutes alone with their computer. Maybe ressurected emotions about Bill and James shouldn't be your biggest worry?

(Not trying to be critical, just hoping you've got your back covered)