This just in, Andrew is okay.

The pumped out his stomach and now all he needs is rest.

Thank God for the man that invented the Stomach Pump.

I must be going crazy.

I'm hearing tones that no one else hears before I go to sleep. I have dreams about schools and how the scenario that I'm in doesn't play like it would in real life. I am feeling my dreams right down to the hot wax that is poured on my hand when I wake up.

What is wrong with me?

The headache is gone, but the worry is still with me.

It's the not knowing that is stressing me out. Is he dead? Is he okay? Does he need rehab? What happened to him?

All those questions associated with a hospital visit that could end up in death come piling in at insane speeds and none of them can be answered!

Scenario and scenario play out. Some real, some not. Worry becomes paranoia. I can't stand not knowing. I have to know something even if it's bad.

Today has been rough. This is the first real blog that I've done in a while. Yes, that's right, no more blips here and there about this and that just so I don't forget later. This will be an actual blog.

So where to begin?

Last night, things where going like they normally do as far as IMs go. Everyone was doing laundry on their end. Andrew popped on. He was depressed. It turned out that Chris was really using him for cash. Andrew felt shattered into itsy bitsy pieces. So shattered that he went back to how he was a year or so ago. He took his first beer in hope that the pain will go away. After being sober for so long and feeling good about himself... this should have never happened.

According to Russ and James, Andrew ended up puking the beer all over the place. At first it was believed that his system has finally rejected beer if not alcohol altogether. That was before Bill said that Andrew took "something" with his beer. I knew what that "something" was. He took some kind of pill, some kind of drug with it.

At the close of the night, Andrew was hospital bound with Josh and Dan riding in the ambulance. James, Bill, and Russ stayed behind. Russ wasn't allowed to go along, while James and Bill didn't want to see their brother in the state he was in. I wanted to stay up the rest of the night, but since the iMac can't connect to the internet, I had to get off the laptop just in case my mother needed it for work in the morning.

When I woke up, I had the worst headache ever. I still have it. If this is what a hangover feels like, then now I know. I could barely do anything today short of getting up and pissing. It's been hard to concentrait and even harder to think. I feel tired and sleepy just sitting here, and all I've had was water.

Worry. Stress. Fear. A killer of the mind, heart, and emotions. I don't want Andrew to die. Not like this. Not after coming so far and beating the odds. Not after achiving so much.

Looks like I now have a reason to by Pokemon Crystal.... five months too late compared to everyone else.

Oh well, better late than never.

My Pokemon Fandom has revived faster than a reborn Christian at a tent revival. Okay, well, maybe not THAT fast, but fast enough.

The other day I watched the old Christmas gift I got Mewtwo's Return. For those of you that don't know, Mewtwo's Return is the direct-to-video special about what happen to Mewtwo and the clones after the first movie. Of course, it doesn't matter if you saw the first movie or not, because they remind you about the back story anyways.

Anyways, after remembering that the movies were from the dark side of the series unlike the light-hearted show that airs seemingly everyday, I began looking for some deals on the movies. That's when I found this. A three DVD bundle featuring none other than the first three movies. If you scroll down, however, it seems that the DVD for the fourth Pokemon movie is ready for release. It looks like the English version of it too. When was it ever released in theaters?

Oh well, maybe I'll go into the movies some other time. Besides, I only know three out of the four as far as plots go.

I don't know what to believe now.

Okay, so maybe it's nothing, and it more than likely is, but I've had conflicting reports as to how to use what codes for which Pokemon game on the Gameshark. One place is saying that in order to get Mew, I have to sacrifice my first slot Pokemon while another places says I can catch it in the wild.

The only thing I do know is this. I should keep the Gameshark OFF while the game is loading from saved data. After the data is loaded, then I can turn ON the Gameshark. After I've used it for what I want to do, I have to turn is back OFF before saving the game. This is to prevent any kind damage, or worst deletion, of the saved game on the cartrage.

Man, it's learning things like this that make me wish Nintendo knew how to promote their games better giving everyone a chance to get Mew and Celebi.

Okay, now if I ever get a GameShark and a GameBoy Color (which should be cheap used these days), I have to remember about this site so I can "Shark" Celebi out of Gold and/or Silver and this site so I can "Shark" Mew out of Red and/or Blue.

If I ever get around to it, that is.

Remember this site when looking for items in Pokemon GS.

That is, if I ever get around to playing it ever again.

Because I was trained never to cancel an appointment unless I can't get to it for reason uncontrolable by anything I can do, I went to my 13:00 appointment with the director of Watkin's Institute.

I have to say, I'm impressed with how much the place has changed. Yes, I probibly have said that before, but I've never seen seen just how much they really have grown! When I was with them during their Young Artist Program, we had to share rooms. Now, every department have their own wing! They even took advantage as to how dark it can get with the old theater and turned one into a dark room for the Photography Department. They even have their own sound stage for their Film Department compleate with space to build a set similar to those in sit coms. You know, the kind that can fold out like a doll house? I also got a better idea as to what each department is really about. It looks like the Graphic Design department may not be for me. I mean, all they do are posters and CD covers and things of that sort. Fun, yes, but not what I thought. It looks like I'm more of a Fine Arts person that uses the computer alot. Or rather did.

Upon my departure, I was handed a CD-Rom of three of their films from the Film Department. It contained three films that showed the range as to what they offer in that department. Some are script heavy, some aren't. Some are filmed digital, some on film. All done by students. I popped it in on the iMac. It was Quicktime format, and the iMac cound run it better. The films were... well...

The first film looked like one of those that you probibly won't get unless you watch Groundhog's Day. It was one of those where the same scene was played over and over and over with different things happening each time untill they got it right. If they wanted to catch my attention or at least my interest from the get-go, this wasn't the way to do it. At least for me it wasn't.

The second one was the classic Horror Film Noir. I mean, one of those that just scream nostalgia like the original Dracula and Frankenstein. A creepy house, a nice use of the fish-eye lens, and it was in black and white to boot! Very, very good.

The third film was the best. It was obviously filmed digitally, because it was crip, but that's not the reason that is was the best. It was one of those "slice of life" kind of stories. One of those happy films that make you feel good at the end. Great cast, great direction, great filming and presentation. You just have to see if to know what I'm talking about.

Just color me impressed already.